My HAT YAI trip was drop on 12  April ;)

Tomorrow trial test.Totally lack of motion to do anything the only motion are still on that is my wash cloth mood.Still on and yet very active,ready to failure.Yes!! ;((

Freaking fucking super duper hao lin down and moody.

nothing so much to write.

LOL!

memorable night ;)

Nahhhh!Many picture ;)

Some took at look out point,genting,pavilion,ice room and my hostel.

Last night celebrate jaccy birthday and supper at look out point.

There is a nice place to have night view of KL.

Very windy and a lil cold.

We reach there nearly 12.30am and finish supper at 2am.

They said go to genting have a cup of coffee,so we race to genting without planning.

Crazy night.

3am off to genting 4am something we are there.

Drinks at oldtown and take few picture then came back to hostel around 7am.

I like this kind crazy memory!!So fun and memorable.

Today totally lost appetite!!!

Not because of moody it caused by a cafe~

Suck!!!nextime i won't go that cafe anymore!!!GRRRR

Babe,don't moody and think yourself useless.

We still young,we had so much time to love each other.

Although we far apart now,i believe this is the test from god.

A lot problem between us in this few year,we break and now recouple.

Love is still strong and stronger than previous time at least we knew we won't easily let out each other.

So babe no worries i will always right here waiting for you.
Don't so stress yourself because i wont force you,i gave you time.

Perhaps sometime you felt i'm pushing you,i just can't wait to meet you.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH,don't do blame please babe!





goodnight peeps.

!!!!!!!!!!!!

Woke up 3pm after bath and eat  bread continue sleep >.<''

I'm feeling so zombie life~wasting time and do nothing.

Haven't revision yet!!

Messy life without any planning.

Tomorrow jaccy birthday,so tonight we go out celebrate.

Blog right now because perhaps will came back on midnight.

Babe,you on facebook.Beside find me,no matter what her post you sure comment her.

Many friend on your facebook why don't comment them and must comment her?

Don't said刚巧看到!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Off to look out point now. ;)

Bye~

Tiring day!!

What a tiring day!

Wake up rushing to pavilion because we had promise accompany jaccy go for罗志祥

Having lunch at pavilion then walk around there and fahrenheit

I really freaking like sweater and windbreaker ♥ !!!I'm advocate life style of foreign and for sure their winter outfit!

If i didn't go to abroad then i won't had chance to wear winter outfit!

I swear this is the most crazy thing that i ever done!

Show luo (小猪)will reached on 8pm and 6pm around we are already been there waiting >.<

Rainy then stop and raining again,we just non stop open umbrella and close umbrella.The god fool us i guess!

We line up at there waiting for show luo almost 2 hour,GRRR!

Finally he came!He just perfunctory talk with media and my friend said when take poster let him signature he have blackly face!Unfriendly!

No offense,I'm just felt so wasted time and money to waiting start and buy their original CD even their concert,i rather sitting in front my comp see them thru youtube or use the money wisely!

I'm more prefer concert of张学友and张信哲 =) ♥

Came back from pavilion without dinner,rain some more so we went to steven corner.Yayyy!Yummmy!

Tired,tired,tired!!

Today have some argue.Perhaps i too sensitive~

As i said you can have your own friend but when you chat with them must避忌一点！

毕竟你也有了我，听者有意。

或许真的是我想太多，明明知道你不会对不起我可是却只会一味的吃醋！

我还是那么的小气又任性。为难你了~

对不起哦宝贝！再次让你失望，你以为这次我会为了你改变~结果？X.X

I don't wish to separate with you anymore.

I must be treasure you as previous time because i could felt your love and your change.♥

I believe that you love me.♥

I knew you will wait me.♥

I love you so much hubby!!♥

Ouhh yahhh,♥HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEAUTIES AN LI♥!!!

Nahh,this year didn't forget your birthday!! ;p

Tomorrow must study hard!!! ;(

Goodnight.

EXPRESS

Feeling disappointed because my BALI trip was banned.It cost over my budget.

Never mind,i can go there by myself or perhaps with my beloved one.

I think I'll go to HAT YAT on 12 April because there will celebrate SONGKRAN in every year.

Surely will get fun!

I'm so hope my dream its won't just a dream and will become true.If i saving money start from now,next year or next two year i can go for it.I think I'm the only naive girl having this dream but after i sharing my dream to my brother and my friend i think i was found my partner to fulfill it.

I was choose the harder way i knew it not easy and maybe i will lose something that i treasure or someone i love.I don't wish my life have some regretting if i gave up my dream.

You knew me well,once i had decided nobody can stop me.

This morning rushing to class without breakfast but luckily i had take my organic drink to full my stomach,lunch time I'm felt so hungry and we suppose go to take lunch but i didn't because i need to save money so i decided back home cook maggie.

I asked  will you wait me for two years to let me fulfill my dream,you gave so much hypothetical questions.I start losing my patience then i throw you a heavy word we break before i go and you said ok.

Suddenly feeling you're fake,how could you said love me and i asking this kind of question you can answer me without considering and explain.Heart so pain and I'm felt fool again because i believe you wont so easily give up our love.

I lost my appetite after get the suck answer from you.Walked to kitchen and the HUSKEY pounce on me.GRRR ._.
BIBI is name of that HUSKEY.BIBI just get cure from sick that's why can't bath so smelly and its make my cloth and pant smelly.I can't take this outfit to dobi join my other cloth,all smell of BIBI,i could die.I went to bath and wash my outfit with my hand!!!How amazing??Actually just because I'm over free and emo so i wanna wash all my cloth to spend my time make sure that i won't think too much.
You called me and talked about what you answer just now.We talked so much about future,of course both of us felt so lost.There is too sad and so much worries,you told me many and i crying for your word,for sure you didn't ever realize you thought I'm just still in flu.Seriously you told me so many,I'm so blurry.
 
Overall,is that no more worries you will leave me away if I'm love you with my true heart and treat you nicely as much as i can?
Should i believe that you will loyalty on me while I'm busying start my journey of life?
Am sure you will had same question as me.
NO WORRIES BABY!
 
I had so much confidence in this reborn relationship,you should put more confidence on our love.
Don't worry will get hurt!Once you fall in love,you can't escape from hurt.
I wanna let you felt its worth to paid so much on me and our love.♥♥
 
 
 

Its felt so good to express my heart feeling at here.

 

 

 

 

 

Goodnight babe and reader.

fCUk

My BALI trip,i can said mostly is not on.

Tomorrow need to ask my parents.

I saw airasia have many cheap fare,but no place to go.So poor.

Today my house mate bring one HUSKEY came back to our hostel,so cute.

Just temporary stay our hostel perhaps half month.

I'm felt so sick,my snivel is keep run at nose.

Sneeze make my left eye keep drop tears,PITY.

I need to wipe my tears and now felt like a lil swollen.

You said you will very attentive to me.

You never mention about it.

Awwww!How careful you are?

I'm told you yesterday I'm get cold when i bath without water heather in early morning.

But you din't ask me to take medic,ask me rest more and don't get cold anymore.

UISEH~So careful!!

Feeling so sick.
Need a warm hug and shoulder.
I knew impossible get it from anyone,rather hug my pillow.

FUCKing tired.
Shoulder and back bone damn pain.


Goodnight.

:(:(:(:(:(

sick!

Today feeling so sick while I'm sitting in classroom and facing my paper work.

My eyes feeling heavy and head dizzy,so sleepy.

When i look at my paper work,feeling so scare because I'm just act like a newbie.

Heartless on study recently,I'm knew its too late to do revision since i knew my exam drop on 12 of March.

Oh my gosh!!! I'm so scare,how???? 

Waiting to came pick xiao qin dead body ya people! ;((

Discussing BALI trip,everything still haven't confirm but departure date might be drop on 23 of  May.
We transit on SINGAPORE,perhaps will stay one day now waiting classmate to vote whether stay or direct back to here.
So excited when I'm thinking bout the BALI trip ~\(≧▽≦)/~


Night,i drove car!!!Since i take license from two year ago,this is my very first time.So poor right?>.<
When my friend drove,its had a small accident.Forget it~


Last night we had some misunderstand.I knew my bad temper so i don't want to pick your call and go to sleep avoid have bigger argument.I'm felt so sorry that throw you alone and let you din't sleep whole night.
At last,we're still so loving each other.
I know you love me and for sure me too.
Miss you ;(











Goodnight.

哦

故事的最后总是不美好的

也忘了这是第几个夜晚

想太多的后果 那又如何

不行用另一种方式去告诉我安抚我吗？

哦   我忘了 你失去那份爱和耐心



我一個？

我要到外面的世界看看

我懂你不會阻止我  你鼓勵我

我害怕因此而失去

失去太多太多

你不懂我多么害怕再次失去

你說的什麽隨緣

你說的什麽相信緣分

感情完全靠隨緣嗎？

難道一點努力和爭取也不需要付出？

這個問題出現后 貿然發現我們感情多么脆弱

我們得小心翼翼的保護 哪怕一個不小心 就碎了

我以為我們還可以像從前那樣 相信愛能戰勝一切

只要彼此有愛 距離不是問題

發現我還是那麼天真

 是你的成熟顯得我天真  還是我對這份愛依然執著

執著得 再次讓我胡思亂想

幻想著 其實你已不再那麼愛我

幻想著 我走我們就散了

難道多那麼一點點的堅持 多一點點執著

是個奢侈的要求嗎？

還是執著的只剩我一個？

:(((;'(((

別碰

 

不堅強，別觸碰愛情。

 渾渾噩噩又一天。

撃爱

假如我走，你真的不等我吗？

鱼与熊掌，该怎么选？

只不过一年，你也不愿意等吗？
你要去跟我爸爸做工，我也让你去了啊~
我呢？
为什么这样。
你不懂我多么伤心，我知道我走，你也会走。

我爱你。

你爱我。

你想我。

我想你。

我的撃爱！

不偉大

假如有機會實現我的夢想 我不惜一切代價的去完成

爸媽 不要阻止我追夢

一切一切 等我畢業再說

畢竟完成這使命 是需要一些金錢

不要說我的夢不切實際

趁我年輕 讓我看看這世界有多美

 

不要說我是女生很危險

我也是時候獨立 讓我一個人活得精彩

我的夢并不偉大 但我喜歡 ♥

作祟

Baby want you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head


Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

感覺你的忽冷忽熱 雖然你口口聲聲說沒有

是女人的多疑心在作祟 還是我的第六感很準

畢竟也分開那麼久了 愛情變淡為感情

不怪你 卻忍不住怪你

你開始的熱情 我的冷冰冰

你要我珍惜你的熱

現在又360翻轉

你的冷漠 好陌生

害怕太愛 害怕受傷

那爲什麽還要愛

愛情 一觸碰 已經註定會受傷

這次我輸不起

你的無所謂 我好低落

不是情人节！

第一天吃排毒产品。
肚子痛到晕，忍住。
结果要吐了，最后还是乖乖去厕所。

呆在婆婆家一整天。
习惯了服侍婆婆，明天要回去KL了。
好不舍得哦~
临走前，婆婆说很不舍得我和哥哥。
我们何尝不是？
多希望能呆在你身旁。
婆婆或许知道这次分离，不懂还有没有下次见面的机会。
很心痛婆婆一直说他就快死了
不许你乱说！
明天要回去KL了，好舍不得婆婆和妈妈爸爸弟弟哦！
这次分离不懂要多久才见到爸爸了~
唉！
晚上本来等爸爸回来去吃晚餐，结果爸爸赶不回来。
所以明天早上才一起去吃点心！耶~点心！

回来半个月了，今晚终于见到我的宝贝了Nemo.
去了BITES喝东西！
聊了好多好多，和你之间完全没有秘密！真好~
好多情侣哦，请问我可以杀掉他们吗？
真可恨！


这是我们第三个情人节。
没什么特别。
我们也只是去年庆祝过一次而已。
习惯就好。
没得见~没得庆祝，没有礼物，没有花，没有巧克力。
不是第一次，也不会是最后一次。



Anyway,happy valentine day babe ♥

既然不能轰轰烈烈，那就平平淡淡。

多想你在身边。

阿瘦，等我！

今天，被老妈拉去看营养师。

用一个机器来测试健康指数

50-60分是最健康的。

我全部都是70-80

我哥哥还取笑我说~哗，几高分一下。

因为熬夜，肝脏，肾脏全都不健康。

肝脏排毒系统慢，所以体内累积太多毒素。

导致我胃不好，太多太多的问题了。

饮食习惯，睡眠时间全都颠倒了~

妈妈当机立断买了RM700++的排毒产品给我。

晕！

不过最重要是会瘦！

瘦这个字眼好久没用过再我身上了。

我哥哥一直说我肥，我老妈还说我痴肥！

我有那么肥吗？说得那么严重！

哥哥还一直问我几时要减肥~

我肥碍到你了啊？

不过算了，瘦瘦可以穿很多美美的衣服。

不可以再熬夜噜~

我要改掉坏习惯，早早上床睡觉才乖乖。

明天开始我的排毒产品！


瘦，你等我吧~！
瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦

今天你说了好多心里话。

我懂你很爱我~

我不是不爱你，只是我们感情真的很淡啊！

而且只能用网络来维持感情。

一点真实感都没有啊。

触摸你都好难啊！

我只不过想你陪在我身边。

你自己也说你很了解我，我真的只是需要人陪在我身边。

当我难过时，你可以拥抱我。

当我伤心时，你可以帮我擦眼泪。

但这一切，我只能自己躲在被里大哭。

如果允许的话，或许也只不过有你声音的陪伴。

我们都懂彼此需要什么。

但却做不到。

我需要等多久？

你回了KK 做工，我们还是分隔两地。

你不明白我没有安全感。

你只会说爱你那就耐心的等。

我不是不等，而是现在的感情没有像以前那样深到我可以有恒心去等。

你懂吗？

说来说去也是白话。

顺其自然。

无奈

今天平平淡淡又过一天
和你吵吵闹闹又过一天

早上问你的，不懂你是否有隐瞒我。
以前你说有几次，今天你却说只有一次。
哪句真，哪句假？
以前你说在一那么久了一定有几次啊~
今天却说以前puppy love所以只有一次啊~

不要改不掉你爱说谎的习惯。

懂我的人都知我不爱听谎言，善意的谎言也是谎言。
早让我知道真相就算生气也气不久。
隐瞒之后却又自打嘴巴的，我请你去死。

有什么事请直接说。
对我，不需要隐瞒。
隐瞒，代表我们之间彼此不信任。


说谎者，我恨不得一巴两巴扫过去！
不然拿刀片乱割你舌头！
不然拿你舌头粘在滚烫的某某物品上!
不然叫螃蟹钳着你！
不然帮你钉舌环又酷又美！不！对你太好了！
嗯~
不然剪掉算了。
做以上的还要浪费我的力而且又肮脏我的手！


好想发泄！
发泄我很无奈却又无助的心情！
怎么办？
没有想哭的情绪。
因为我可以很坚强。
乱发脾气？
耍野蛮耍任性？
这绝对是我的强项~！
但我不想。


我要努力的开心。
一定要！

几时？

扰人的烦恼不曾间断
所以我说 single is simple,couple is trouble.
最后，重点是什么？


我还是不明白


一整天折腾下来，好累。
不开心。
为什么不能平静的好好爱呢？
我现在对你不好不爱你了吗？
你想太多了。
真的。
不要再这样好吗？
搞到大家不开心对谁也不好吧？


对不起
没有在适当时候给你安慰
或许我没有字眼可以给你
或许我不懂得该怎么开口
不代表我不在乎
我心痛你懂吗？
心痛又在让你难过。
对不起


你无意间去翻开那些旧照片
笨蛋
你的心又在流血了吧？
在我们争吵中，你也勾起我最不愿意想起的事。
我一直想~
越想越生气！
生气得有种想放弃的感觉。
对不起
你都没那样想过，而我却那样。
我很软弱吧？
答应你，我会坚持好吗？
我绝对没有比你好受。
不要说气话
不要说你的出现打扰了我的世界
我不要听那些
假如你害怕失去我
那你应该好好爱我
而不是做一些让我不开心的事
懂吗？




我知道你不会再轻易放弃
我希望是真的




我最希望的是你不要那么情绪化
我害怕我的不会安慰
让你觉得我不在乎
真的不是那样的。




一个大大的拥抱可以解决我们的担忧。
几时呢彼彼？:(






好多好多都顺其自然吧！
交给时间来决定。

今天好灰。

傻一回

彼此都害怕受伤害，那怎么去爱

爱一个人爱八分留两分爱自己，那怎么算爱

爱一个人不是应该奉献所有的爱毫无保留的吗？

八分的爱我不懂得怎么给

你懂得怎么给吗？

你害怕你太爱我而失去你自己。

那我应该怎么做呢？

我不明白。

其实还是有很多比你好的男生。

但，我终究选择你。

我相信你会爱我的。

我相信你会给我幸福的。

我相信你再也不会让我受伤。

我相信你不会再让我流泪。

也相信你不会再抛下我不管。

就算不是真的。

就由得我任性的傻多这一回吧！

你说他也爱我好深，你开始害怕失去我。

他牺牲自己让我快乐。

他知道我只有拥有你我才会快乐。

你别辜负他好吗？

让他觉得他的牺牲是值得的可以吗？

真的好感激他，没有他，我也没有你。

毕竟分开了一段时间。

虽然彼此还有感情但始终没有当初那种爱的轰轰烈烈的感觉。

给彼此时间培养吧。

或许这一切一切都比不上一个有温度的拥抱来贴心。

只有拥抱最真实。

♥

 

 

让我一次爱个够！

 



WHAT WAS HAPPEN?

This morning wake up everything was change.

He suddenly become my bf again.

Everything came to suddenly,i also not in situation.

I knew you send him my blog link ask him treat me good.

Why you so stupid?You knew you do like that you will never own me.

But you let me know love a person we really will wish them happy

I'm really thanks you,without you we wont together again.

So happy yet so sad.

I'm felt guitly and sorry,i gave you too much fake hope :(

I hurt you deeply.BAD WOMEN.

Althought you knew we couple back again,but you still choose to stay beside me.

You worry he will hurt me again so you never let me alone.

Hmm,he wont hurt me i think.

We'll very treasure each other.

Time will be the best medic >.<

Just felt so guitly and sorry.

Beside sorry i don't know what to say.

0208 i not so like 0322 more meaningful.

Need to recounting again >.<

Aikkzz.

Don't set rule between us.

I don't want like pervious time lost our friend and freedom too.

I won't tie you as long as you don't betray me.

I believe you.I choose too believe.

After so many happended we still can couple again.

I know what i should do.Freedom and believe is important.

I choose to believe you won't easily drop me and leave me alone to facing problem.

This is last time.

Once you easily say out break,then you go.I won't beg you.

I believe myself this time i din't choose wrong person.

Nahh ♥ give you ;)

goodnight my ♥

(hm,i'm so sorry i knew you sure so sad until din sleep well last night.sleep tight ya =) )

害怕你心碎没人帮你擦眼泪

Urghh,ignore my stupid face!!

I want the alcohol drinks.

Don't want face the truth.

Fatty xiao qin :(

Same as usual,lame.Stomach pain in early morning,don't know why~damn uncomfortable!!

After lunch,go to uncle Simon house take ang pau.I drink some beer even my gastric so pain but i just so want!!I meet his nephew,we lost contact for 8 or 9 years i think.I can't recognize,she change so much.Now she become a beautician ;)

I still remember when we're small we together travel to KL with our family,we play at hotel lobby then you go bang the window.Hahahaha,then you felt headache and dizzy~everyone of us still remember this.Sweet memory of us,luckily you still remember.We exchange phone number and you said want fetch me hang out,NO PROBLEM!Really excited that i meet you again ;)

You asked my to wait you,i don't answer you.You gave me a call,after all you said after tonight you knew what should you do,you will go chase your dream and try to get a new girl friend.Than what the point you asked to wait you?You asked me let you try fall in love with other girl but you said you always will miss me and love me.WTF you talking huh?I knew you felt not fair because i dating with other guy than go back to you,you also want do like that too.You is it like vicky?You said she is your angel and she always support you and never mind your past like me.You knew what mean HURT?I hang up your call because i don't want let you know that I'm crying again.We talk so much,but i don't know where the point actually.You're selfish,but i wont do blame because i knew everyone just finding their own happiness.Impossible i can stop him.Final decision??Let the time and fate decided.

害怕你心碎没人帮你擦眼泪 so meaningful and touch when saw this sentences.I knew your shoulder is ready for me,really thank you so much.I'm really lost.So depressed and frustrated.I'm freaking worry you're wasting your time,aikkz.What to do,i knew i can't advice you anything because love is so so blind.Hmm,time is the better way to solve every problem.My pain from a wound still here,keep bleeding.Sorry that make you all worry,I'm tough,I'm okayy,still alive and breath.

Finally today popo go for wad.At least popo no need too suffering.
We all already ready what will happen soon.Beside sad and worries we really can't do anything.Accepted with a positive thinking,this is the better and only way for us,I guess.
Today nothing special happen also actually~Bored at home,lying at sofa watch drama only.
This year CNY really so bored and meaningless,no any relative came back from KL.
Suppose today go to Hyatt but because popo so we cancel it,disappointed.But wont blame it,i knew popo is more important.CNY came silently and gone silently without noticed.Everything is back to the starting point again,everyone back to their working position and students back to school.Our life non stop repeated,so dull.Meaningless for me!I wanna have some special life experience in my life but it just so hard to make it if without some money and the main reason is my parent too much worries can't let me go to get my own adventure life :(((

How?I'm just waiting the chance to run away from this country from this city.I must break my dull life~!!

I have exam in March !Seriously,all of my friend are prepare sit for the exam and I'm still not in the mood yet.I knew i sure failed it,need retake in September again.I knew i knew but i just could not found my study mood seriously.My daddy sure will disappointed even i knew my brother sure can get distinction.Actually,I'm really worry about my study but i really wonder why i can't just concentrate in study and do revision.What the hell I'm thinking?I have no idea too.Lazy?Heartless?Sigh__
Just now you called me just for chit chat.Why you still go massage with that bitch?Fine,that's not my business.I'm just your ordinary friend.
Hmmm dude,I'm apologize to you first if that day let you disappointed.Thank you always bring me happiness when I'm down.I know you're kind to me,i just worry you fall in love to a BAD WOMEN.
My mood is so down because of popo and of course my studies.I wish that i can just be a simple human that don't have to facing any separate with my beloved and facing any economic problem.How good if I'm a rich women.I wont sitting at home blogging now.Perhaps I'll blogging at Greece?France?United Kingdom?Rome?
Uhhhhh,stop dreaming babe!I still sitting at home now :((
Goodnight people.Its time to dreaming~

God blessed  my popo.

Lost

Came from Ipoh finally.

I meet my cousin that i never saw him before.

Today before went home daddy bring us to 观音洞.

There have many different type to make wish.

There have a small cave and we need to go up by stair.

I go up with my younger brother.

On the half way,i surrender because i felt my brain lack of oxygen >.<

Stomached some more,so i sit at stair waiting my brother.

I thought i can go up but I'm still so weak.

I wonder why i go hike broga hill so many time i still so weak,sigh__

Mummy just now said tomorrow send popo to hospital.

She can't eat and sleep well,its suffering.

We all so worry!!

Hope she can be healthy soon,even we know it so hard.

But,at least let her comfortable a little bit,please.

Tomorrow night don't know who will go to hospital overnight.

Sure will get my turn to there too :((

Hmm~

I'm felt so sad because after that day you never find me.

Sometime i was very depressed too.

How could you just left me alone without caring my worries?

You know i love you.

Than?

I believe that you sure still loving me!!!

Tell  me,Show me,Prove me!!!

Don't hide it else we will losing each other again and again.

Could you just treasure me?

You know i saw everything about sabah or anyone about sabah,I'm damn sad.

If can i think i would not go back to there anymore.

There have so many memory of us.

I can't go back there!!

I don't have courage to do that!!

Sorry that i always hurt you.

I don't know what to do..

Lost my way~!

Can you understand my situation? :((

goodnight.

Hope i will be okay after this and same to popo too.

Sigh__

Ipoh

Today at grandpa home,Ipoh. Bored because can't online~ Now yam cha with irene aunty at oldtown~ LOng time dint meet her~her son already grow up >.< Sorry that I hurt you,but you still choose to stay beside me. You said you're the knight that protect princess to meet her prince~ Just like fairy tales..It happened to me now! Touching. Thanks you so much!!! Wish you all have an pleasant day =]

AGAIN :(((

I'm still wondering that should i write this post?

But,i wanna let out my heart feeling.

You called me afternoon.

You told me you miss me again.

Just now you called me.

You keep say you miss me and call me bebe.

Sound so familiar to me ''BEBE''

Aikkz!!

You asked me go back to KK than we can together.

I asked you,you can accepted what i done before?

You said YES.

You said it was past,you don't want to think it anymore and ask me don't ever mention it.

HAHAHA.

I just told you now have a guy treat me well and could change for me,why don't you?

Then?What he answer is same as what i guessing.

He said '' go with he if he treat good,don't waste your time on me''

TaaDaa~~SEE?

I know you sure said like that.

Why you crying?Because you miss me too much?

I asked you want me to stay or want me to go.

You never gave a answer.

Just keep saying that you miss me so much.Sigh~

I told him~

If you ask me to stay,i stay.

If you ask me to go,i go.

You said don't want me wasting time on you if i have a better man.
You don't really understand what called wasting time.
Now the our situation is called wasting time.
You don't say clearly to me.
I'm so worry bout what you said just now.
You said just do what i wanna do.
You said i'm not understand you,of course i'm not.
How could i understand??
You never told me!!
You said if i knew your heart feeling someday perhaps i will collapse.
Sound so serious.I'm so worry.
What had you done?
You love me right?
Then??Why you don't ask me stay??!!
Treasure me when our love still left abit.
Don't said you get nothing beside me.
Now is you gave up me,not i abandon you!!
Now,you still my love.
When i gave up,you're nothing to me.I'm serious!!
How come you can easily gave up what we had build in this 3 years?
Nahh,trouble is a friend!!
Trouble also around me!!!
I really can't read you.Tell me please.
WHAT YOU WANT??



HM!!!
How??
Enough hurt and sad after you read this rubbish post?
Know why i'm moody??
Know the answer bout yesterday i asked you??
If he ask me to stay,i stay.
If he ask to go,i go.
Still feeling worth to loving me??
Regret??
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Me this bad women!!!
You this stupid men!!!

AGAIN!!!!
FEELING MYSELF SO BAD AND CHEAP.
ALWAYS HURTING PEOPLE.
ARRGGGGHHH!!!
REALLY COLLAPSE.


Will you felt i'm so bad?
Will you think i'm wasting your time?
Will you think why i love he but still so good with you?
I'm cheap?
hahahahahaha :((
I'm really felt so sorry to you.
When you saw my answer you sure sad and hurt.
The feeling guilty is came to me again,CAME AGAIN!!
I HATE THOSE FEELING.
I hurting you HM!!
Leave me as fast as you can!!
Else you will get more hurt!!
Saving all your love to a girl that worth!!
I'm not worth!!
I can't promise you anything..
Perhaps at last you get nothing either you get me.
I DON'T KNOW!!
HOW??HOW??HOW??


I'M REALLY FELT SORRY TO YOU :(((
There is a timing bomb planted between us.




Off to IPOH.Tired~~!!!
goodnight =(

Our relation will finish after you read this rubbish post?

I'm worried actually.

I'm sorry!

Fucking tired!

Walaowehh!!

What a damn tiring day?

TIRED!!!

SLEEPY!!!

Reunion CNY dinner.

Popo still can't join,because she can't sit properly.

Never mind,i feed popo everyday.

Do something filial when old folk still alive.This is for your own good.

You all will regret when they gone,its too late to cry!

Treasure all the time that you can spend with them.

Spend your time with them as much as you can!!!

Spend all your time wisely!!!

UuUuUuUu~why you always like this?

Appeared when i'm trying to forget you? 

Why you wanna told me you're touching when you saw the wall that what i wrote for you?

Why you din touching before but now?

Now we just ordinary friend~

You is you,me is me.

We don't have any relation.

Why you wanna told me you miss me right now?

Why wanna told me your room is full of our memory?

I'm not dare to think back our memory,how suffering you know?

Why you wanna me memory recall back to the days that we stick together?

Heart so pain!!

I really don't know you want now.

Said miss me as friend or ex?

Treat me as friend or the girl you still like but not dare to like?

Is you give up me,give up everything that i build!

You not dare to love,how bout me?Me too!!!

You always said i'm so lack of love until simply find a boyfriend.

That's not call lack of love.

Sometime girls just need a guy who really caring her,warn her.

I just a ordinary girl.

I just need the men who really caring me.

Will be right there when i'm need him.

So hard for you?Yea, definitely.

Aikkkz,whatever.Useless say too much.

I'm nothing for you.

Just a EX.

You miss me just because of the room full of memory,not because you still like me.

XIAO QIN.

Stupid enough.Don't ever believe that he still like you.You think too much!!

Sometime perhaps the true love is nearly you or beside you.

Use your heart to feel it.

Heyyyy,HM!I know you sure sad what when you saw this.

That's why i told ya i need time.

I haven't let go him.

You know right?

I still so love him.

You know right?

I trying to forget him.

You know right?

I'm unsuccessfully every time he find me.

You know right?

I don't want to hurt you.

You know right?

I'm not dare in love.

You know right?

TIME!!TIME!!TIME!!

I NEED TIME!!

i don't know it would be taken how long time.

If you felt not worth or wasting your time.

You may go now.

I don't want to hurt anybody.

I don't want feel guilty.

I don't want bear all the sin again.

If you go,i won't blame on you.

Perhaps that is the better way?I don't know.

Tired CNY.

goodnight people :(