goodbye 2010

In new year mood.

Off to MELAKA for countdown.

2011,i hope you love me.

2011，i hope both of us happy.

goodbye people.

goodbye 2010.

HAPPY NEW YEAR =]

高估

你的忽冷忽热我早已习惯。

也清楚在你心中的位置

是我太高估我自己

只是自己不愿接受事实。

我早已不再重要。

fair

I'm not important for you.

In your heart,i'm never fade.

Really?

I not dare to guess.

I just know,you care yourself more than me.

As you said wanna having new beginning,my attitude problem should be change.

How bout you?

Your bad habit,attitude and the way you treat me no need change?

If this is the deal of replace my fault.

Sorry,it's not fair at all.

I can bear all the sin.

But,at least do something fair for me.

You know my heart full of you.

Think from my side too.

Satisfied.

What a tiring day?

After class went to sunway pyramid.

SALES!!

i shop until not even feeling hungry.

i bought a cloth from M&G and two DISNEY Tshirt.

Not enough time to shop actually.

But satisfied!!!

I'm so happy today!!

because of you baby~~

New beginning~

MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!

i hope so this is a true.

Really hope we can have a new beginning.

Waiting for it...

Feeling touch when you thanks to me i always be with you

without your days is hard to passed.

Welcome baby,i'm sure always be with you.

I wiling spend my whole life with you and replace my fault.

I ❤ YOU

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

I want you know that,i don't want anything if i ain't got you.

Happy birthday my dear Nemo.

love you so much.

You're my best friend i ever had.

Very treasure our friendship :]

Smile everyday.

 

 

Dear mr.R,

Even we just ordinary friend,but i miss you so much.

Sometime i will really sad when you not even caring my feeling.

If you like me,care my feeling don't keep said we just friend.

I know you like me,but i you think we still will have chance than care my feeling.

Seriously,i'm feel hurt somtime.

How ridiculous?

:[

ordinary friend

是我自己想太多。

我们根本就只是普通朋友。

我们之间是没有约束的。

是我自己越界。

知道你要去clubbing

心里很不舒服。

我知道你很有可能遇到她。

算了。

反正你也不会在乎我的感受。

再次警惕自己：

我们只是普通朋友

Shitty

My christmas just passed with busy house work.

How happy huh?

 

 

 

We really don't have so much time to talk.

Just like ordinary friend chit chat in few massage.

Hye babe!

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

 

:[

:'[

:o

Tomorrow go back to a shitty place.

sad christmas :[

A sad christmas.

i thought tonight at least at 12am we can have a talk.

9pm more you already go to bed.

Don't have chance to talk even greet you merry christmas.

miss you   :[

don't want.

This is the first Christmas that i feel don't want to celebrate.

 

because without you.

I don't think i wanna go anywhere.

There have a lot couple holding hand and celebrate.

I DON'T HAVE.

 

don't want go out!!

You don't know how sad i am.

今天婆婆有好转了。

保佑保佑。

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Aww,you let me feel so in love. ♥

God bless..popo

Damn worry!!

God bless popo please~

BO PI BO PI..

thanks that you still be with me..

treasure the word that you told me :]

cheers up :)

Hope popo will get well soon.

Everything going smooth~

Why you so miss me?

But keep away from me?

Heart pain!

cheers up. 

huge hug ;❤

我才发现2012年并不遥远了。

 

 

 

 

原来我最想做的是和你拥抱。

大大的拥抱

然后生活在国外。

珍惜眼前所有的一切。

2012年真的会有很多灾难。

❤❤❤❤

 

BIG ❤

  Ehhh,today mood swing as usually but not because of you.

Hang out with babes,accompany a snake king to find part time job.

Really speechless..I think is you required the boss.

You're trouble,if i'm the boss i will kick you out.

MUAHAHAHAHA!!

Aiyo~

After that went to have lunch at BITES.

Ohhh,I love the spaghetti so much. BIG LOVE ❤  
 

 

 

 still have some picture at that snake king phone.

She eat the cable..now at her stomach.

tomorrow will at her ass hole when she DA BIAN!

I'm so worry my grandma.

She is so sick!!

Hey,all grandchild do something filial when old folk still alive.

You all will regret when they gone,its too late to cry!

Treasure all the time that you can spend with them.

Spend your time with them as much as you can!!!

Spend all your time wisely!!!

I ❤ my grandma so much.

Hmmm,thanks you still treat my grandma as your grandma.

You still so caring all my family except me!HENG!!

You're so filial piety :))

I'm so touching that you do everything good for all the family include my parent

You 're so kind to my family.

I'm so appreciate.

 Ohh yea,just now tell my dad i wanna go stay at other country.

Mum asked me don't dreaming.

Dad asked me study first  (╰_╯)

My dad is worry I'm living alone at abroad.

He want me to be independent but not far at other country.

Disappointed!!

He said Singapore also is abroad,go there is enough.

He don't want me far away from him.

My dad is so rely on me :))

He said after he death i just can leave malaysia.

Sound sad. 

Hate my parent said like that.

Both of you is not allow to do that.

I'll cry~

Heart pain when you said like that.

Dad is getting old nowadays,i can felt it thru your voice.

I'm missing you dad.

Waiting you come back on CNY,we go to HATYAI :)

As your promised bring me to HATYAI ohh.

You said i'm always the princess in your heart.

What i wanna you will try your best to give me.

You never cheat me or broken promised.

But you still cheat me a thing,you not allow me go back to KK.

Forget it.

I wont blame you dad.

I ❤ you DADDY.

My dad told you after CNY you will go back to KK working 

My dad find another great job for you,you will have a good future.

I'm happy that you have a good future

I'm happy that you wont boring

I'm happy that you get more new friend

I'm happy that you will find another GF

I'm happy that you will forget me soon.

I know I'm too much worries.

I'm not qualified to have those worried

Because as you said,we just ordinary friend.

(you said you wont forget me)

drop me!

Ehh,nothing to write actually.

My life still bored and suck as usually.

HAHAHA.

You asked me to let go.

But why you still wanna let me know you miss me??

I'm still very miss you and love you.

I'm feel so suffering..

I wanna run from malaysia..

I wanna get my new life at other country..

DAD,send me go to other country please.

I promised i wont afraid loneliness.

Just drop me at other country. 

goodnight people.

touch my heart

相信总有一天，你不在是我生命中的一部分，

我知道此刻的自己依旧深深地爱着你，

我知道现在我心中对你的思念依旧好深，

但我做到了，我不找你了，我真的不找你了...

看见你上线，想找你聊天，但还是狠下心来下线，

看着你号码，想要打给你，但还是狠下心来关机，

想要去找你，但拿起电话，打给的人始终不是你，

想告诉你我想你，最终我还是坚持让自己寂寞下去...

我是那么地爱你，可是却不能和你在一起，

我是那么地想你，可我知道你爱的不是我，

我是多么多么地想要和你在一起，

我是多么多么地想要找你说说话，

但最终，我才知道我并不会去找你...

或许这也算是一种逃避吧，

或许我该承认我没有勇气面对你，

你对我的爱有多少我心中明白，

我爱你，但我真的不会再找你了，

我知道你没走，因为你从来都没来过...

你该知道，我从来就没有离开过你，

我只是没找你了，我只是不想让你为难，

你不爱我，我知道，我不能不爱你，

所有的痛，留给我一个人 承担吧，

你真的没错，只是我自己太过在乎了...

有一天，当你翻起手机的通讯录时，

无意间看见我的手机号码，你会想起我吗？

你会有股冲动想要打电话给我吗？

你会想问我最近过得还好吗？

又或者，在你的手机内从来都没有我的号码，

或许，那时候你也会听见那句话...

"你所呼叫的用户暂时无法接通，请稍候再试”

那一刻，你会知道我绝望了，

我不再等你了，也不再等任何一个人了...

WTH?

Its freaking tired.

My leg is totally lost control and keep ask me to sit down.

Walk to LRT and change to KTM and change station,finally i reach.

Hurrayy.

I'm stepped in midvalley.Of course it not my first time went to there..

I'm so excited because of i'm suffering in the KTM and at last i'm there,sob~

Midvalley is full of human..Just like the ants.

Midvalley shopping no need money harrr??

All come to here and keep buying and i buy nothing.GRRRR!!

每个人一人几袋

我就两手插口袋

Walk for a couple hour i guess,went to Starbucks.

Frapuccino choclate cream chip is always awesome.

 

after that want to go for a movie but its full seat.ISH~

than i decided go to time square..

when i take KTM,WALAOWEH!!!

the coach is full of women,because im in the coach that for female..

i'm squeezed in the corner,i can't move.

when reach the station that i should go down,OH MY GOSH.

there is no people wanna move and let me out.

 

 

WHAT THE HELL THEY THINKING?

THE PEOPLE THAT WAITING TO COME IN DON'T LET ME HAVE THE SMALL PATH TO OUT AND WHAT THEY KNOW IS PUSH IN TO THE COACH.

DO THEY HAVE BRAIN?

THEY CAN'T LINE UP PROBABLY?

Fortunately,i'm still alive.

muahahaha.

THE END.

i wanna be your girl again.

Just so simple.

I know it impossible anymore.

心碎

Went to movie afternoon,lelio popo.

Quiet touching larhh~

很厉害咩？

原来我不找你

你也不会想我

你不会打给我

你不会信息我

你无动于衷

心碎。

很不想回家。

要哭也没那么方便。

不喜欢强忍淚水。

我好想你

你也想我好嗎？

明天去MIDVALLEY.

吃不能吃 睡不能睡

沒有了你 全都不對

我都學不會 把愛敷衍

用笑容來把眼淚催眠

笑不能笑 哭不敢哭

人不像人 鬼不像鬼

朋友都說這 不過失戀

但我卻連呼吸都膽怯

能不能不愛了 因為愛太痛了

我痛得快死了 卻無法把你忘了

能不能不愛了 愛情它太痛了

我痛得快死了 卻無法把愛割捨 

rubbish

Feeling so sleepy now~

Wake up early off to school,a suck school..

come back with a damn hot burning sun!!

hate the sun,make me feeling dizzy and keep sweating.

You keep ignore me!!

Treat me as nothing,you online also comment that Bitch!!

You never add me as friend,never open inbox see my massage,even my blog.

Why you never wanna know what i'm thinking?

Is it not important for you anymore?

Anyway,i'm here for you when you need me.

Haiix~

CHANGE TOPIC

Ehhh,i go to swim and sauna.

Feeling awesome,after i scrub my hair and my whole body.

ohh,of course my face.

Soft skin bah..Uisehh!!

Holiday for a couple week start from tomorrow~

i'm really not excited.

Go back home~

family just stay at home

i become mushroom.

Go out?

No more place to let me go and because of transport also a big trouble.

I have car license wor of course,i just don't dare to start engine jekk mahh!!!

How??Blow me ahh??

Stay hostel with wall mehhh?

No friend at here...

I hope my lovely X'mas will be celebrate at KL.

But,i'm ready to stay at room or lying at bed to countdown.  

5,4,3,2,1 

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

&

GOODNIGHT

I din ever had a great x'mas in my life.

I still do love X'mas,indeed.

Merry merry Christmas

Lonely lonely Christmas

牽著你的手

最簡單的幸福,就是和你一起手牽手走到老

你從來只會對我說,
放手吧,去找更好的幸福...
可你不知道我最幸福的事就是牽著你的手


牽起的手,別輕易放手

幸福,得來不易,別在愛情裏違背了自己的良心

錯的人

明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真正的可笑
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身
明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真的真正的可笑
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身
可能 在愛裡面這樣算笨
可能 永遠沒有所謂永恆
但是我 不願放棄這裡面一點點可能 寧願笨也不想要悔恨
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我還是奮不顧身
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我相信有點可能

 

 

 

 

我好難受

是我太笨

我愛你

 

好吗？

从昨晚就感觉好委屈

好像像个小孩抱着你哭诉。

可是从昨晚电话就没钱了，发不出信息。

我在想，或许注定不需要告诉你吧。

如果我说我只是把他当朋友，想从他那边了解你

我真的没有惹事

我真的没有说过一句难听的话

我真的没有像以前对PUKIBIN那样对他

我想你相信我

相信我不会再那么任性

相信我不再口出恶言

相信我为你而改

他有意无意的骂我

他告诉我他喜欢你

你会喜欢他吗？

我好害怕

又觉得好委屈

除了哭，我也不懂该怎么好

我懂我很蠢，除了哭什么都不会。

我真的好害怕你不要我。

你会吗？

你相信我吗？

你相信不是我的错不是我惹事吗？

相信我为你而改吗？

还是~

你觉得一切是我自取其辱？

 如果你相信他，那我没话说。

今天找不到，我好担心。

胡思乱想。

担心你出事，害怕你不理我

哭了又睡，睡醒又哭

找不到你的感觉原来是这么难受。

从前天晚上起到现在，我只吃过一碗泡面。

对不起，没有好好爱自己。

只是难受的感觉让我感觉没胃口。

不管发生什么事，我还是那么爱你。

又好多好多话想对你说。

好想好想离开这里，到国外生活。

好想好想你突然的拉起我的手说我们出国生活吧。

我一定一定答应你。

我们有这样的机会吗？

相信我。





今晚你一定很累。
明天多休息
多喝水
少抽烟

好吗？

            

干

干他老娘。

竟然跟一个神经病，双面人聊了一整晚。

FUCK OFF LAH YOU BITCH.

SLUT.

WHORE.

WITCH.

有病就去看医生，不要再那边乱吠。

什么？

我是什么东西我自己也不知道。

应该不是人，也不是动物。

哭的发抖，哭的累。

你在哪里？

可以抱抱我吗？

我找不到你。

你还记得我吗？

我是芩。

你的芩。

你做么不理我的？

我一直在你身旁

知道你受伤会心疼，想帮你敷药但我不能。

知道你咳嗽还吸烟，想自己学吸烟了戒了再教你戒但我就是不爱烟

知道你生病还不戒口，想骂你但我懂你也不会听

知道你又浪费钱，想念你却让你不开心

想在你身边照顾你

你知道吗？

不要嫌我烦好吗？

爱你在意你才会花心思去了解你照顾你

你发现我的存在吗？

就算我做错了什么事

你可以不理我

但，你不要忽列我的心思我对你爱

如果你觉得我没资格说爱你

那我喜欢你

星的光点点洒于午夜
人人开开心心说说故事
偏偏今宵所想讲不太易
迟疑地望你想说又复迟疑
秋风将涌起的某夜
遗留她的窗边有个故事
孤单单的小伙子不顾寂寞
徘徊树下直至天际露月儿
冬风吹走几多个月夜
为何窗边的她欠缺注视
刻于窗扉小子写的爱慕字
完全没用像个飘散梦儿
今宵的小伙子倾吐憾事
谁人痴痴的要再听故事
偏偏痴心小子只知道上集
祈求下集是个可爱梦儿
知不知对你牵上万缕爱意
每晚也痛心空费尽心思
这小子欲断难断这故事
全为我爱上你偏偏你不知
春风轻吹点点火花衫月夜
人人开开心心说说故事
终于倾出这小子的往事
长年累月为你怎再自持
今宵知否对你的暗示
为何真的将它当故事
偏偏痴心小子只知道上集
祈求下集是个可爱梦儿
知不知对你牵上万缕爱意
每晚也痛心空费尽心思
这小子欲断难断这故事
全为爱上了你偏偏你不知
知不知每晚想你十次百次
每晚也去等因我极心痴
可不可合力延续这故事
延续这片爱意一生俩相依
知不知对你牵上万缕爱意
每晚也痛心空费尽心思
这小子欲断难断这故事
全为爱上了你偏偏你不知
知不知每晚想你十次百次
每晚也去等因我极心痴
可不可合力延续这故事
延续这片爱意一生俩相依

一笑而过

不要把脸藏在月光背后
有谁在意我们的生活
坐在安静角落
该为这一刻找个解脱
不要你眼里伪装的内疚
该是自己幸福的时候
静静地想一想
谁会追求刻意的温柔
你伤害了我还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过回忆是多余的
只怪自己爱你所有的错
你伤害了我还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过回忆是多余的
刻骨铭心就这样的被你一笑而过
心碎千百遍任谁也无法承担
想安慰自己的语言

 

 

 

 

还是那么容易让你遗弃