害怕你心碎没人帮你擦眼泪

Urghh,ignore my stupid face!!

I want the alcohol drinks.

Don't want face the truth.

Fatty xiao qin :(

Same as usual,lame.Stomach pain in early morning,don't know why~damn uncomfortable!!

After lunch,go to uncle Simon house take ang pau.I drink some beer even my gastric so pain but i just so want!!I meet his nephew,we lost contact for 8 or 9 years i think.I can't recognize,she change so much.Now she become a beautician ;)

I still remember when we're small we together travel to KL with our family,we play at hotel lobby then you go bang the window.Hahahaha,then you felt headache and dizzy~everyone of us still remember this.Sweet memory of us,luckily you still remember.We exchange phone number and you said want fetch me hang out,NO PROBLEM!Really excited that i meet you again ;)

You asked my to wait you,i don't answer you.You gave me a call,after all you said after tonight you knew what should you do,you will go chase your dream and try to get a new girl friend.Than what the point you asked to wait you?You asked me let you try fall in love with other girl but you said you always will miss me and love me.WTF you talking huh?I knew you felt not fair because i dating with other guy than go back to you,you also want do like that too.You is it like vicky?You said she is your angel and she always support you and never mind your past like me.You knew what mean HURT?I hang up your call because i don't want let you know that I'm crying again.We talk so much,but i don't know where the point actually.You're selfish,but i wont do blame because i knew everyone just finding their own happiness.Impossible i can stop him.Final decision??Let the time and fate decided.

害怕你心碎没人帮你擦眼泪 so meaningful and touch when saw this sentences.I knew your shoulder is ready for me,really thank you so much.I'm really lost.So depressed and frustrated.I'm freaking worry you're wasting your time,aikkz.What to do,i knew i can't advice you anything because love is so so blind.Hmm,time is the better way to solve every problem.My pain from a wound still here,keep bleeding.Sorry that make you all worry,I'm tough,I'm okayy,still alive and breath.

Finally today popo go for wad.At least popo no need too suffering.
We all already ready what will happen soon.Beside sad and worries we really can't do anything.Accepted with a positive thinking,this is the better and only way for us,I guess.
Today nothing special happen also actually~Bored at home,lying at sofa watch drama only.
This year CNY really so bored and meaningless,no any relative came back from KL.
Suppose today go to Hyatt but because popo so we cancel it,disappointed.But wont blame it,i knew popo is more important.CNY came silently and gone silently without noticed.Everything is back to the starting point again,everyone back to their working position and students back to school.Our life non stop repeated,so dull.Meaningless for me!I wanna have some special life experience in my life but it just so hard to make it if without some money and the main reason is my parent too much worries can't let me go to get my own adventure life :(((

How?I'm just waiting the chance to run away from this country from this city.I must break my dull life~!!

I have exam in March !Seriously,all of my friend are prepare sit for the exam and I'm still not in the mood yet.I knew i sure failed it,need retake in September again.I knew i knew but i just could not found my study mood seriously.My daddy sure will disappointed even i knew my brother sure can get distinction.Actually,I'm really worry about my study but i really wonder why i can't just concentrate in study and do revision.What the hell I'm thinking?I have no idea too.Lazy?Heartless?Sigh__
Just now you called me just for chit chat.Why you still go massage with that bitch?Fine,that's not my business.I'm just your ordinary friend.
Hmmm dude,I'm apologize to you first if that day let you disappointed.Thank you always bring me happiness when I'm down.I know you're kind to me,i just worry you fall in love to a BAD WOMEN.
My mood is so down because of popo and of course my studies.I wish that i can just be a simple human that don't have to facing any separate with my beloved and facing any economic problem.How good if I'm a rich women.I wont sitting at home blogging now.Perhaps I'll blogging at Greece?France?United Kingdom?Rome?
Uhhhhh,stop dreaming babe!I still sitting at home now :((
Goodnight people.Its time to dreaming~

God blessed  my popo.

Lost

Came from Ipoh finally.

I meet my cousin that i never saw him before.

Today before went home daddy bring us to 观音洞.

There have many different type to make wish.

There have a small cave and we need to go up by stair.

I go up with my younger brother.

On the half way,i surrender because i felt my brain lack of oxygen >.<

Stomached some more,so i sit at stair waiting my brother.

I thought i can go up but I'm still so weak.

I wonder why i go hike broga hill so many time i still so weak,sigh__

Mummy just now said tomorrow send popo to hospital.

She can't eat and sleep well,its suffering.

We all so worry!!

Hope she can be healthy soon,even we know it so hard.

But,at least let her comfortable a little bit,please.

Tomorrow night don't know who will go to hospital overnight.

Sure will get my turn to there too :((

Hmm~

I'm felt so sad because after that day you never find me.

Sometime i was very depressed too.

How could you just left me alone without caring my worries?

You know i love you.

Than?

I believe that you sure still loving me!!!

Tell  me,Show me,Prove me!!!

Don't hide it else we will losing each other again and again.

Could you just treasure me?

You know i saw everything about sabah or anyone about sabah,I'm damn sad.

If can i think i would not go back to there anymore.

There have so many memory of us.

I can't go back there!!

I don't have courage to do that!!

Sorry that i always hurt you.

I don't know what to do..

Lost my way~!

Can you understand my situation? :((

goodnight.

Hope i will be okay after this and same to popo too.

Sigh__

Ipoh

Today at grandpa home,Ipoh. Bored because can't online~ Now yam cha with irene aunty at oldtown~ LOng time dint meet her~her son already grow up >.< Sorry that I hurt you,but you still choose to stay beside me. You said you're the knight that protect princess to meet her prince~ Just like fairy tales..It happened to me now! Touching. Thanks you so much!!! Wish you all have an pleasant day =]

AGAIN :(((

I'm still wondering that should i write this post?

But,i wanna let out my heart feeling.

You called me afternoon.

You told me you miss me again.

Just now you called me.

You keep say you miss me and call me bebe.

Sound so familiar to me ''BEBE''

Aikkz!!

You asked me go back to KK than we can together.

I asked you,you can accepted what i done before?

You said YES.

You said it was past,you don't want to think it anymore and ask me don't ever mention it.

HAHAHA.

I just told you now have a guy treat me well and could change for me,why don't you?

Then?What he answer is same as what i guessing.

He said '' go with he if he treat good,don't waste your time on me''

TaaDaa~~SEE?

I know you sure said like that.

Why you crying?Because you miss me too much?

I asked you want me to stay or want me to go.

You never gave a answer.

Just keep saying that you miss me so much.Sigh~

I told him~

If you ask me to stay,i stay.

If you ask me to go,i go.

You said don't want me wasting time on you if i have a better man.
You don't really understand what called wasting time.
Now the our situation is called wasting time.
You don't say clearly to me.
I'm so worry bout what you said just now.
You said just do what i wanna do.
You said i'm not understand you,of course i'm not.
How could i understand??
You never told me!!
You said if i knew your heart feeling someday perhaps i will collapse.
Sound so serious.I'm so worry.
What had you done?
You love me right?
Then??Why you don't ask me stay??!!
Treasure me when our love still left abit.
Don't said you get nothing beside me.
Now is you gave up me,not i abandon you!!
Now,you still my love.
When i gave up,you're nothing to me.I'm serious!!
How come you can easily gave up what we had build in this 3 years?
Nahh,trouble is a friend!!
Trouble also around me!!!
I really can't read you.Tell me please.
WHAT YOU WANT??



HM!!!
How??
Enough hurt and sad after you read this rubbish post?
Know why i'm moody??
Know the answer bout yesterday i asked you??
If he ask me to stay,i stay.
If he ask to go,i go.
Still feeling worth to loving me??
Regret??
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Me this bad women!!!
You this stupid men!!!

AGAIN!!!!
FEELING MYSELF SO BAD AND CHEAP.
ALWAYS HURTING PEOPLE.
ARRGGGGHHH!!!
REALLY COLLAPSE.


Will you felt i'm so bad?
Will you think i'm wasting your time?
Will you think why i love he but still so good with you?
I'm cheap?
hahahahahaha :((
I'm really felt so sorry to you.
When you saw my answer you sure sad and hurt.
The feeling guilty is came to me again,CAME AGAIN!!
I HATE THOSE FEELING.
I hurting you HM!!
Leave me as fast as you can!!
Else you will get more hurt!!
Saving all your love to a girl that worth!!
I'm not worth!!
I can't promise you anything..
Perhaps at last you get nothing either you get me.
I DON'T KNOW!!
HOW??HOW??HOW??


I'M REALLY FELT SORRY TO YOU :(((
There is a timing bomb planted between us.




Off to IPOH.Tired~~!!!
goodnight =(

Our relation will finish after you read this rubbish post?

I'm worried actually.

I'm sorry!

Fucking tired!

Walaowehh!!

What a damn tiring day?

TIRED!!!

SLEEPY!!!

Reunion CNY dinner.

Popo still can't join,because she can't sit properly.

Never mind,i feed popo everyday.

Do something filial when old folk still alive.This is for your own good.

You all will regret when they gone,its too late to cry!

Treasure all the time that you can spend with them.

Spend your time with them as much as you can!!!

Spend all your time wisely!!!

UuUuUuUu~why you always like this?

Appeared when i'm trying to forget you? 

Why you wanna told me you're touching when you saw the wall that what i wrote for you?

Why you din touching before but now?

Now we just ordinary friend~

You is you,me is me.

We don't have any relation.

Why you wanna told me you miss me right now?

Why wanna told me your room is full of our memory?

I'm not dare to think back our memory,how suffering you know?

Why you wanna me memory recall back to the days that we stick together?

Heart so pain!!

I really don't know you want now.

Said miss me as friend or ex?

Treat me as friend or the girl you still like but not dare to like?

Is you give up me,give up everything that i build!

You not dare to love,how bout me?Me too!!!

You always said i'm so lack of love until simply find a boyfriend.

That's not call lack of love.

Sometime girls just need a guy who really caring her,warn her.

I just a ordinary girl.

I just need the men who really caring me.

Will be right there when i'm need him.

So hard for you?Yea, definitely.

Aikkkz,whatever.Useless say too much.

I'm nothing for you.

Just a EX.

You miss me just because of the room full of memory,not because you still like me.

XIAO QIN.

Stupid enough.Don't ever believe that he still like you.You think too much!!

Sometime perhaps the true love is nearly you or beside you.

Use your heart to feel it.

Heyyyy,HM!I know you sure sad what when you saw this.

That's why i told ya i need time.

I haven't let go him.

You know right?

I still so love him.

You know right?

I trying to forget him.

You know right?

I'm unsuccessfully every time he find me.

You know right?

I don't want to hurt you.

You know right?

I'm not dare in love.

You know right?

TIME!!TIME!!TIME!!

I NEED TIME!!

i don't know it would be taken how long time.

If you felt not worth or wasting your time.

You may go now.

I don't want to hurt anybody.

I don't want feel guilty.

I don't want bear all the sin again.

If you go,i won't blame on you.

Perhaps that is the better way?I don't know.

Tired CNY.

goodnight people :(

Today wake up in early morning.

Help mummy prepare something to拜神~

Quite tiring!!Sleepy but can't sleep.

Went to popo house feed popo eat~

Aikkz,how ohh?I'm so worry popo..

She so weak and even can't walk by herself..

Everyday said tired and don't want to eat even open her eyes. =(

Sound so serious..

Beside spend my time to her,i'm no idea what can i do.

I saw her so suffering but can't do anything felt so bad!Useless me.

Afternoon chit chat with my mummy..

Why adult always think that we are immature?

What they think is always right?

I don't think that my thinking is childish,just every people have their own opinion.

Thats not mean we are wrong.

Don't judge me even i haven't step in this society.

That's not mean i'm immature okayy?

Even i'm not mature enough,but i have my own opinion.

I know every parents want their daughter married a nice men.

Although the guy is poor right now that's not mean he wont become rich in future.

Who's know about future?

If your daughter really in love with the guy,no matter how you advice she also wont bother it.

Love will make people blind.

Mom!Your daughter is not a child,she have her own opinion.

If she had chose this way she wanted,why don't you support if you really can't change the fact?

Why don't try to accept the fact and keep argue instead?

Sometime i just could not understand what you all think.

Always treat us like child,thought that we're always childish thinking.

You all definitely WRONG.

Abit angry bout that topic! 

But fine!I know what you all done is for our own good.

12am.New year eve~

Why came so silently?I'm not ready to step in 20 years old yet.

I'm not ready everything that i will step into this complicated society yet.

I'm so scare and worries!!

Aikkz~

No new year atmosphere at my home,we all worry bout popo :'(

Hmmm,i'm still not so sure what relation we hold now.

But i know you're so good to me.

Let's fate decided it.

I just can said i'm scare in LOVE.

Sorry >.<'

By the way,HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Wish every people smoothly in everyday 

Webcam with a pig.Funny because talking phone while webcam.LOL

My very first time using webcam.

goodnight people.